(This was something I had posted on the old board, which I have updated and revised.) I put it off for so very long.It terrifed me, even more than the naked schism itself -That death, that loss of self, that becoming someone else-Even when it happened to others I knew, familiar strangers who told me there was nothing to it -Even when I was vouchsafed a glimpse of a dandy and a clown -Still I put…